River God

I was listening to this song by Nichole Nordeman today, and it has got to be one of my all time favorites!
Here are the lyrics:

Rolling River God

Little Stones are smooth

Only once the water passes through

So I am a stone

rough and grainy still

Trying to reconcile this river's chill

CHORUS:
But when I close my eyes

and feel You rushing by

I know that time brings change

and change takes time

And when the sunset comes

my prayer would be this one

that You might pick me up and notice that I am

just a little smoother in your hand

Sometimes raging wild

sometimes swollen high

never have I known this river dry

The deepest part of You

is where I want to stay

and feel the sharpest edges wash away

CHORUS:

And when I close my eyes

and feel you rushing by

I know that time brings change

and change takes time

And when the sunset comes

my prayer would be this one

that You might pick me up and notice that I am

just a little smoother in your hand

Aren't those lyrics beautiful?!?! I am such a rough stone... so in need of River God. Sometimes it is easy to lose my patience, and wonder why some days are so difficult to walk with Him. This helps me remember that "time brings change & change takes time". It's a battle... I can feel myself as a little stone, trying so hard not to be swept away with the current. Sometimes it would be so much easier to just go with the flow... to allow the challenges to just drag me along, instead of hunkering down and letting the sanctifying waves wash me smoother. Isn't it funny though... the times in you life when you do let go, and just go the easy route, you end up in a much worse place then you were when you were battling the current. I look back on those times in my life and wish I had clung like heck to the bottom of the river and let God smooth those rough edges.... wonder where I would be now. A more loving and helpful wife, a more patience daughter, a more caring sister? I could go on for hours thinking about that. However, I know that the Lord even planned those days. He knew when I would give up.. and He also knows how it will help me in the future, and that it makes me grateful for His grace.

"And when the sunset comes, my prayer would be this one, that you might pick me up and notice that I am... just a little smoother in Your hand"